Saturday, 21 June 2014
Excitement and Fear
Excitement and Fear
AKA MY FIRST BLOG POST - Attempt number 489,543
OK…This is way harder than I thought it would be. I’ve written at least hundred witty meaningful posts in my head but faced with the screen my mind is a blank.
Hmmm…many deleted paragraphs later….I’ve decided to bypass wit or deep meaning and just say a bit about myself
So…I’m happily married, I have three children who are pretty lovely most of the time (and as I have one teen, one pre-teen and one younger one I think that’s pretty good going) and I have just started writing books for Harlequin, with my first book coming out in August.
I worked hard and long and experienced a fair amount of heart ache along my road to publication and now I have got to the bit I never really believed would happen. The exciting bit!
But it’s not just exciting it turns out it’s scary as well.
Exciting because I will get to hold my book in my hands with my name on it.
Exciting because it is actually on Amazon and in six weeks it will be on bookshelves in real shops.
Scary because other people will get to hold my book in their hands and then they WILL READ IT (aaargh….) What if they hate it? What if they roll on the floor laughing at the wrong moments? What if they don’t laugh at the funny bits? Or don’t cry at the emotional bits? Or don’t cheer Olivia and Adam on to the ending? Hell what if they don’t even read to the ending?
Exciting because this is a dream come true. Scary because it’s a dream that took me years to achieve and what if it all goes wrong and everyone who reads it… hates it, rolls on the floor laughing…….
Anyway you have probably got the point by now…I’m a bit of a head case about all this!
But of course I wouldn’t change a thing (apart perhaps from my neurotic personality!)
And after all what’s the worse case scenario? That everyone will read it and hate it and roll on the floor laughing…..
OK. I am going off to hide in the bedroom with my duvet over my head until August.